Tired

It’s simply exhausting,

These years of all or nothing

A trickle there

A fountain tomorrow

An ocean for tonight

Rains for the hour

Too exhausting,

Draining

This balance between love and wall

A suffocation beyond control

Heaviness nailing tongue and mind

Coffined beneath doubts and paranoia

Questions and unspoken answers

Struggling walk of the tight rope

The scale of rational and emotional

Irrational and emotional?

Bleeding fingers clasped desperately along fraying threads

Slipping,

Guiltily letting go

No longer able to bear the weight

Of stones on the other end.

Tired.

Just tired.

 

Kadeen Nichelle Oksana Waldron

Saturday, July 27, 2013. 22.54 hours