Ode To The Summer of Goodbyes

Au revoir

To the questions

To the fears

To the doubts

To the disappointment

To the despair

To the desolation

To you

And you

And you

 

To the hugs of meaning,

The Circle of comfort,

The havens in the storms,

An unspoken goodbye

 

To a firm handgrasp

The understanding smile

To the efforts of concern and care

The pressure of balance and love

To the heartache of suffering eyes

To the freeness of laughter

To the gifts of understanding

To the pleasures of you

To the crinkled brows

To the dimpled cheeks

To the half smiles

To the earned affections

To the difficult journeys

To the exhaustion

To the joy

To the worry

To you

 

An unadorned adieu.

 

Kadeen Nichelle Oksana Waldron

Saturday, July 27, 2013. 23.09

 

Tired

It’s simply exhausting,

These years of all or nothing

A trickle there

A fountain tomorrow

An ocean for tonight

Rains for the hour

Too exhausting,

Draining

This balance between love and wall

A suffocation beyond control

Heaviness nailing tongue and mind

Coffined beneath doubts and paranoia

Questions and unspoken answers

Struggling walk of the tight rope

The scale of rational and emotional

Irrational and emotional?

Bleeding fingers clasped desperately along fraying threads

Slipping,

Guiltily letting go

No longer able to bear the weight

Of stones on the other end.

Tired.

Just tired.

 

Kadeen Nichelle Oksana Waldron

Saturday, July 27, 2013. 22.54 hours