Timeless Darkness

 

I sit in a world of my own
Almost prostrate within my inner darkness.
As each day passes,
As each night closes;
I am drawn closer to the hour;
The moment when all secret fears will be revealed.
The twilight moment,
Between the joy of living
And the sorrow of surviving.

The darkness closes in,
The inner darkness radiates;
Their foreplay ends.
What is revealed?
My naked agony…

Each vulnerable thought
Each careless word
Every unforgotten pain
All fruitless desires
Unrequited love
Lost friendships.
Heartbreak.

Dawn steps lightly toward me;
Light returns, bit by bit.
My constant companion,
My beloved sweetheart,
My worst enemy,
The source of my sorrows–sweet darkness–
Flees.

The darkness has fled.
Once more I am in the joy of living;
Happy faces surround mine.
They quell the fears,
Ease my agony into temporary oblivion;
My being fills with light,
If but fleetingly.

Twilight approaches,
The faces leave
And once more,
I am left to face the pain,
To embrace my beloved darkness.
Ever a timeless cycle,
This darkness….

Kadeen Nichelle Oksana Waldron
February 8th, 2011.