To The Girl With Dimples

Thank you.

For being the glue,

For being strength when you thought you were not.

Thank you.

For being my sounding board.

For viewing my demons without judgement.

For understanding without fear.

For those conversations which you listened to

and read as I raved and mumbled

For knowing the me who exists without running.

Thank you.

For letting me in.

For sharing your voice.

For sharing your thoughts.

For trusting me,

Both with secrets and with demons.

For your care, and your support.

For the smile, both yours and mine.

Thank you.

There are paths which you will walk

And terrors which you will run from

Trials that you will face

And sins that you will commit

Mistakes that you will make

And aches you will learn from

But

You are strong

And you are strength

You will make the right decisions when the time is right

And you will soar when you have stretched your wings

You will bruise

You will break

But you will also heal

And in time, you too will be healed

“Life is good” will be your creed

One day, it will not mock you

And one day

Those unopened wings,

Those scars,

Those doubts,

They will fade away,

And in time,

there will be skies.

Bright. Blue. Clear. Skies.

To the one with the big heart

The eagle who will face storms–

To the girl with the dimples,

They suit you,

Perhaps you should finally let them have their day?

Kadeen Nichelle Oksana Waldron

Sunday, July 28, 2013 1 a.m.

An I miss you and a few dozen hugs:- for Sara, Bourbon

@ kyllingsara: The original Sara who began that blog. I miss you. Sometimes it makes me extremely sad when I think of how hard you struggled to rise above it all, only to be pulled under by everything inside of you. The stories you told of the horror you were forced to face, the lines of anger and hurt and fear that you let out as you were besieged with memories and body sensations. You fought hard. You really, really did.  I owe you a poem, an ode to your struggle, and one day it will be written, maybe with a happy ending? I can only hope and pray.

To the rest of the system, I hope that one day you guys find your way. I haven’t heard anything from the blog in a while and that makes me worried, and a whole lot scared, but I’m hoping that all of you are still around somewhere.

@Bourbon: You will pull through this. You won’t forget. But you will stand against the waves of pain and fear that always seem to control your life. There is only so far down a person can go, and as long as you’re willing, there will always be a way back up. Don’t give into the self-doubt. Don’t give into the urge to cave. Don’t gave in to the fear. Don’t let it take over your life. I hope it doesn’t seem as if I’m trivialising your struggles. I just really believe that you can and you will.